Just sharing...

Crazy life... that's what I have right now. I guess it's just the season I am in. I wonder often what God is doing behind the scenes because I don't really get it all. But do we ever? Life is so interesting. We have good days and bad days. We have times of rest and times of busyness. I think of the verse in Ecclesiastes 3:1 that says "For everything there is an appointed time, and an appropriate time for every activity on the earth...." (ESV)

My time right now is spent investing in my kids and our future plans of a house. This has been more of a sacrifice than I really realized it would be. I daily turn to the Lord and often cry out to Him as I am in my truck driving down the road. My husband and I are making a sacrifice with being apart for long stretches at a time as he works in the bush. I have not been doing ministry like I love and am used to and it feels weird. But it's just where I am and I am learning to walk in it and go with the flow. I am needing God to be so much in my life and I know He is capable because of who He is. I tend to want to know the outcome of things and reason away at why things happen. I need to break away from this and TRUST.

I know as our house is being built things will make more sense. As my kids grow into capable and confident young adults I will be thankful for this time. As I lean more on Him I will become stronger and have a deeper knowledge of who He is. There is always sacrifice to be made if you want to get to where you've never been before. You have to live like no one else so that later, you can live like no one else. (Dave Ramsey) So, I am living right now differently than I would like in some regards but I have to look to the future and be thankful for this time of craziness. I love my kids, I love my husband and I love my Jesus who will never leave me or forsake me, no matter how I feel, where I am or what I am doing. That's just who He is and for that I am grateful.